My Little Buddy Snick

I made peace with my kitten this week when I went home for my uncle's funeral. I haven't been home since the accident because it has just been too hard to walk in the house and not have him run up and greet me... I stayed away for three weeks but finally had to face it today when I went home... The moment that I pulled into the driveway, tears started falling. I knew that when I walked through the gate to my backyard that he wouldn't be there all excited to see me and making that funny little noise that he always made around me... it wasn't really a traditional little purr or meow but more like he was trying to roll his R's around me.... lol he must have known that his family was Mexican...

After the funeral as I was leaving, I walked again into the backyard and stood by the tiny little mound of fresh dirt pilled by the fence where he was buried... I told him I loved him and thanked him for all the wonderful memories and love he had given me in his short little life... and as I walked away, I felt a sense of peace in my heart that I had let him go... and all the pain I had been bottling up in my heart was released...

A loss in any form is always so difficult to cope with... it makes you realize how precious every second you have on this earth really is... and regardless of what you believe about the afterlife, it is not death that is painful... it's being left behind and dealing with the thought that your loved ones are no longer with you... My little buddy kept me company through a very hard time in my life when everything was changing and I know that he was put with me for that specific reason... and then it was time for him to go...

We are all put on this earth for a reason... whatever it may be... and knowing that you leave having accomplished your tasks must be such a rewarding feeling... I can only hope that when it is my time to pass that those who have shared this life with me will let me go as well... I can only hope that when they time comes, they will all know that I loved them and that my life was that much better for having known them... just as I feel with Snickers.

Buddy, I love you with all my heart... maybe I'll see you again one day and we can pick up where we left off...

JJ